Sunday, February 24, 2008

Mood: cheerful

Music: 1234 - Feist

So, finally, after a week or two, my mood has finally lifted, and I feel normal again. Of course, I had to go through a whole bunch of drama but that's usual. Regardless of whatever was bothering me, it's now okay. And I feel sane.

So. My biggest thing now, is university. Sometimes, it feels like a year and a half is too long. But then, now that we're going through our courses for nest year, it seems a lot closer, because we have to be careful. We need to research where we're going, see what credits they need for what programs, and it's a little stressful, but a little exciting. Well, mostly exciting. I'm almost positive I don't need to take math, and can't, since I only took college level this year, which means I can't switch into a university one for next year (and obviously, universities only take uni level credits).

So, since I'm more then likely not taking math, I am taking english, writers craft, studies in literature, canadian/international law, philosophy, history and vocal XD. And a spare. We can take two, but we've been advised to take seven or eight classes, because it's easier to drop a course then it is to add one. If you start to fail or something. So, vocal is like a spare anyways XD

It makes me happy. I'm excited to take three English's :D I'm such a huge dork >.>

Speaking of dorks, I am still addicted to FF 12. And I still think it is an amazing game. Tedious, but oh so fun...

And, oddly enough, I just remembered that i need to go get a new eyebrow ring. Bar, thing. XD And I want to got to Buffalo (the city) and go shopping~~

And so, that is my life, in a nutshell, excluding the drama.

what we could have been, 5:36 PM 1 comments .

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Mood: Discontent

Music: The Promised Land - Nobuo Uematsu

So, this week has been drama-filled and mildly stressful. Drama concerning one person. I have a habit of getting myself into stupid situations with friends. Like, being too close, not paying attention to others, and then being mildly screwed over.

Not to mention I've in general just been annoyed with this one person. I feel very, very stifled, which bothers me. There's no need for me to have to ask if I can go to the library to do homework, or ask if it's okay if I stay in the school and eat with other friends. There's no reason for me to have to go out to eat every day when I'd like to stay inside, and there is definitely no reason for me to feel guilty when I decide to stay in to do homework. This is not a relationship. I do not have any obligation to put this one friend before everyone else.

And yet, I still feel unnecessarily guilty. I was sure I'd freed myself from this situation when I moved >.>

It's been a very tiring week.

Other the other hand, I got 100% on my math test, for the first time in years. I don't know if I've ever gotten full marks! XD It even said 'top of the class' on it, and I was astonished, especially since I pretty much failed math last year.

Really, I think it's because i decided to go down a level, and I'm re-learning everything we did last year. But my teacher said what we're doing now is the hardest topic of the year, and I am having no issues so far. Maybe I'll get lucky and actually do well this year?

Hospitality on Friday was a disaster though. I nearly destroyed my cookies, and made the teacher think I'm stupid. I'm not, I can cook! I made amazing cookies last weekend >.>

I played video games yesterday to get my mind off of things, though. It worked. I also played all day today. From ten in the morning until six thirty at night. It was amazing, I haven't played for that long in a long time XD. Hopefully I'll get to on Monday, since it's 'Family Day' and we have no school.

And so, that is my life, in a nutshell. Dull, as usual.

Labels: drama, math, video games

what we could have been, 1:06 AM 1 comments .

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Mood: calm

Music: Screaming Infidelities - Dashboard Confessional

Second semester has started and already my life has just suddenly drained away. >.>

I have, in order: English (university), Hospitality (workplace), Math (College) and World History, which I think is also a university prep course. My English course changed from last year though; apparently it was really slack, and the grade twelve teachers were complaining that their students didn't know anything, so they've made it harder. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but it's supposed to be more like a first year university course now. Poetry is a big part though, which I guess is good, I like poetry. I've already chosen my poet and poem for my ISU. The Rose of Battle, W.B.Yeats. It's very pretty.

And so, life has been busy and conflicted. I've had homework every night since Monday, which is more traumatizing then it sounds, because last semester I had one class that I actually did any work in, and had a spare to do the rare homework we got. So I barely had any. Although, the homework does give me a good reason to go to the library at lunch, despite my friends horror. But I love the library, it's warm, comfortable and quiet.

For the conflict, I guess that's mostly my fault. I have a tendency to get sick of people, I guess, and just push them away after a while. Maybe, I'm not sure. But regardless, since this time last year, I've been spending most of my time (at school, anyways) with one friend, and it just kind of gets to be enough? Especially since I've been feeling restless, and her opinions are clashing with mine. Actually, everything she does kind of clashes with what I do, and it's tiring. And I've realized that I'm falling back into my usual routine and giving myself to one person, and failing to spend time with anyone else. So I've been trying to spend more time with other friends, and maybe even hang out with them (the horror). We've only got a year and a half left, and it just doesn't seem like a lot of time anymore. As much as I want to get on with it and start my life, I want to be with friends.

So yeah. Drama. And, I need to go find a new job. But that's nothing new, I say that almost every single day. Maybe I should get around to it?

I've been on a Dashboard Confessional kick. I don't know why I didn't like them the first time I listened to some of their stuff, but I absolutely love them now. My friend's brother was playing some of their cd's, and I kind of just fell in love with them, and am now downloading all the torrents of their albums. I'm so behind in our music >.>

Anyways, hopefully today I can play some video games (more! I got to on our snow day) and buy healthy food.

I'd like healthy food. I need to be more healthy, or I'm going to die of malnutrition >.>

what we could have been, 11:37 AM 1 comments .

Friday, February 1, 2008

Mood: disgruntled

Music: LOVE SCREAM PARTY - SuG

I was supposed to go to the city today, by bus, and, you know, bring my friend to Chinatown, 'cause she doesn't get the opportunity to go to the city often, being in college and all, and living kinda far from the city. Unfortunately, it's not happening. Because it snowed early this morning, and still sorta is, and it's windy, etc. Not that we really care, 'cause it's Canada, and we're used to this weather, but her MOTHER. >.>

Her mother apparently didn't want us to take the bus when it's snowing? Or they wouldn't run or something? I've seen the busses run when we had like, two feet of snow, and I couldn't get a ride to work from my own parents. Those busses like, ALWAYS keep going. Seriously. The thing is, I'd definitely be allowed to go, even in this weather. As long as I'm not alone, my parents could care less if I went to the city. But my friend, who is turning twenty this year, is rarely allowed to take the bus. And now can't take it because it's snowing. Like, honestly.

So, yeah. Woe is me and all that. I even got paid yesterday, and I'm feeling relatively comfortable with spending some money now, and I'm not going to get the chance to go to the city anytime soon. Because I have no one else to go with. Lena, Brenna, I demand that you both go to university here. Somewhere, anywhere in the GTA? XD 'Cause, honestly. At nearly twenty, you'd think she'd be allowed to make her own decisions? I'm three years younger and I have more freedom then she ever will >.>

But, what really bothers me, was that is was so nice out yesterday. It was like -8 (without the windchill) and it was SO INCREDIBLY SUNNY. There were absolutely no clouds in the sky, and I've never seen it so clear. I don't think I've seen a clear sky like that since I moved from Winnipeg! XD If she hadn't have had class, and I didn't have to work, it would have been the perfect day to go to the city. It was the perfect day to go to the city. And now it's all ugly, and snowy again. And almost all of the snow had melted >.>

Hmm, maybe when she wakes up, I'll try and convince her to convince her mum to let her go. Or we'll have to go tomorrow, which probably won't happen >.>

:sigh:

what we could have been, 11:16 AM 1 comments .