Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Mood: awkward.

Music: Ryuusei Rocket - An Cafe

Well. I have to wonder sometimes, how I always end up listening to people's life problems (I don't mind yours Brenna no worries. You're special :D) But that's kind of the point. Obviously I have no issues talking to certain people about their problems, but then like, other people break out the issues and it's like ...woah.

Especially the really bad family ones. Like, my friend asked "Can you imagine calling the police on your dad?" and I was going to reply with "Well, yeah, I think about it often, you know, just in case," But uh, I didn't think that would sound very sympathetic. Even if it's the truth. Cause you know, gotta have back up plans incase he decides he desperate to see me. I'm a little paranoid...

Anyways, point it: it's AWKWARD having to talk about super intense family problems with someone I don't know too too well. Especially when I would just call the police and get it over and done with. I mean, if your dad is trying to kill your mum ...isn't that what you should do?

And so it's awkward. partially cause to me my family is not like, some superior level of friends to me, they're just people I live with who happen to be as close as my closest friends who may be closer. Meaning my friends are more important than family, they ARE my family, it's just how I roll.

So it's hard for me to understand why someone wouldn't cal the police on their parents, especially when it will be beneficial for all in the long run.

ON THE BRIGHT AND HAPPY AND NOT SO DISTANT FUTURISH SIDE....WINNIPEG IN THREE DAYS. yeah. i'm excited XD

i mean, no stress, at all, hopefully a new job, no school, no douches from school, no dinky's to dal with....life's gonna be good,

...except for my brothers. cause that means ADD, drama, lack of privacy ,ADHD, retardedness and oughdliweg.

sometimes i wonder if i can actually give up my solidarity and handle having a sibling again, i OWN this house. i am alone and love it and can do what i want.

and then BAM, i have a brother again.

ugh. maybe it's just because i haven't seen them in six months? That's a really long time...

OH GOD WHAT DO YOU SAY TO SOMEONE WHO IS HAVING A BIGGER FAMILY CRISIS THAN YOU ARE?????

ughh. i need to go die. XD

not really. i wanna cook though~~

what we could have been, 12:43 PM 2 comments .

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Mood: kind of nauseous, kind of worried

Music: Gekidou - UVERworld

So, it's that time of year. Exam time. FINALLY, it's all over~~ I've been waiting for the last (real) day of school for a while. And, I managed to get home early today, because I'm done everything and don't feel good XD I'm also not working, cause I'd like to review for the two exams I have tomorrow. Math and Hospitality; both should be pretty easy, especially since in both I get to have a cheatsheet! Not that I need one in math, but still.

Then, on Thursday, I have my english exam, where half is questions of Macbeth, and the other half is an essay on Frankenstein TT^TT gonna fail that one (I think my average went down to 79%, but the way TT^TT I had finally had an 80...). And then on Friday, I have my history exam, which requires some major review, I think. Mainly going over old tests to see what I did wrong.

And then I'm done! Exam consultation day is on the 25, and I think I might go just to check the marks, but not actually stay for the 'classes'. since they don't put exam marks on report cards and all (which I think is stupid- I wanna knwo what I got). And on the 24, I'm helping Mrs. A do cooking for the graduation ceremony, from 10-2, and possibly in the night too, so can get some volunteer hours XD

AND THEN, next Friday, I am going to Winnipeg :D It was supposed to be Monday, and god I wish it was, but eh. I'm ...sort of excited. With exams and never being home I kind of forget I'm going XD I'm happy to be going though.

Also, Crisis Core kicks MAJOR ass. It's so, so cool to learn the story that starts FFVII and stuff. like, i re-watched Advent Children (I love that movie) And it actually has a point now! It makes sense, now that I understand more of what's going on. I So, SO can't wait for the PS3 version of FFVII to be releasd (in the future...) because god, I wanna know more about the story TT^TT And I am so in love with Cloud Strife, he's so cool >.> And Zack! Zack is so adorable and amazing, and I don't understand how everyone paired Cloud and Aerith together, because Zack and Aerith are SO in love with each other!! Her wishes all put together was to spend more time with Zack :) It's so sad!! Especially cause I know Zack is going to die!!

Anyways, I'm gonna play Crisis Core now, the do review and possibly save Britty later XD

God, I love that game!!

what we could have been, 12:18 PM 2 comments .

Monday, June 2, 2008

Mood: kinda sick, but kinda happy? ish

Music: TODAY - Angela Aki

All day I felt pretty sick to my stomach on and off. I'm not sure what's making my stomach so upset, but lately it's really been bother me. I'm going to stop talking my pills to see if it makes a difference at all >.>

Hospitality sucked today. Mrs.A turned the oven on and told Lucy and I to put the brownies in (because it was the one we don't really use much, and she did it since we didn't know how) and since she said it was ready we just put them in and set the timer. Except Mrs. A PUT THE OVEN ON BROIL. And we didn't know, so the brownies burned. And she got mad at us >.> It was HER fault though.

Ugh. and math is really annoying. We're doing 2D and 3D shapes and whatnot, and right now we're doing perspective drawings and ugh. I should have taken the U/C level, this is too boring >.> I'm also really behind in History (I have so many notes to catch up on) and in English too, I'm missing notes. I'll have to work hard >.>

I decided, for sure this summer, I will finally learn to play my guitar, ad I might start up piano/keyboard again. Britty said she'll buy a cello (they're cheap somewhere) and learn to play, but if not she'll master the piano XD She's also resuming saxophone. That way, we can tap into our more music sides XD I'm not sure why either of us dropped out of band (well, she's an art student through and through, but she's really a music student too). I think I should have stayed in band >.>

However, this summer, I'll also take writing more seriously, redo one story, work hard on another, and plan the other out. I was tempted to try and learn to draw, but it really does take time, and time is limited for me. I should just try and work on what I'm okay at.

My main priority is the one with Tyler. It's definitely been ruined, I really had a plot for it in the beginning and all but it was hard to write it how i wanted it when I had to make sure it stayed true to Jill's wishes. I also prefer first person perspective, cause it's easier for me to write, but Jill hates it, so I took up third person, which I'm no good at. However, now that we're not friends anymore, I think I can run free with it, even if most of the characters are hers >.> I think I'll change it so most become mine. I had good ideas for that story.

Basically, Tyler is the prophet/oracle that will either be the downfall/savior of the universe, and there is a group out to bring him back, cause he belongs to them, but he's like the key, and once they have him the power to control the universe is theirs. Nimbus is the nephew of Lucifer/the heir of Satan/the son of God, Cirrus is his twin angel brother, Apollo is a lord who went to school with Nimbus and fell in love with Nimbus and had a relationship with Nimbus. SOMEONE (who is yet to be determined) kind of ruins that relationship. Deimos is STILL the illegitimate child of Nimbus ( he always was, always will be. It works with them). And Deimos and Tyler eventually end up together.

...and a real plot is forming! Go me!!!

Next on the list is the unnamed one with Gary and Maverick. Gary is a hybrid human/alien, and was taken as an experiment. He's pretty much been tortured by the military, and has been on the run since he was 15. Maverick is actually a failed attempt at creating an human/alien hybrid, but he doesn't know, and is a medic (soon to be assassin) for the military. He meets Gary when he's 12 and Gary is 13, breaks Gary out when he's 14 and Gary is 15, and are best friends at 18 and 19. They eventually fall in love. Basically though, LONG tim ago, the military invaded a plant in another galaxy that's similar to Earth (as we all know, Earth will one day be all used up, and that's what happened) and forced the 'aliens' residing there to take refuge on Earth or be annihilated. It's pretty much one big conspiracy, and there's like, a rogue group that Gary and Maverick eventually join, along with other friends and unravel the truth.

I also have one about a boy named Zack, who has just been dumped by his (girly) boyfriend (for a GIRL) and is depressed. So his friends bring him out to buy a new video games (since he has worn out Cloud Strife. And I don't know if it's relevant, but Zack is Japanese American - he was raised in California, but is fluent in Japanese, since his parents are immigrants). He buys a game with an intriguing case, and meets a girl named Mika, who says mysterious things. Eventually, he gets dragged into a different world (tat is under the guise of the video game) and gets dragged into corrupt country and basically helps them to fix things. He also meets Miku and Raj, runaway soldiers (all children 14 and over become soldiers), and falls in love with Miku. I still have a lot fo planning to do with this one too.

Then, my last newest one is about vampire hunter Constance Marshall (who is a boy, contrary to his name). I was gonna make it a love story but I might just make it about Constance and his best friend (I forget his name now) who was turned into a vampire. Meaning, Constance has to hunt him down and kill him. Drama and such. I haven't thought about it too much.

And then, I would like to write something simple, an easy love story or something. I'll think of that later too.

Wow. So much stuff in one entry. I should prolly do homework now.

>.>

what we could have been, 4:52 PM 1 comments .